Walang Pahinga

Walang pahinga. Ito ang taang deskripsyon sa amin ng mga kaklase at kabatch ko sa UP.

Hindi kai makakpagbakasyon nang maayos tulad ng maaring gawin ng nakakarami dahil internship na namin sa summer. Ako naman maliban sa internship, kailangan ko ring ayusin ang student council. Kailangan naming maging organized at prepared for this coming school year. Hay, naku! Thesis mode na kasi ako at si Stan next school year so kailangan habang may panahon aisaayos na lahat.

Saka pray for me...Sana makuha ko itong ninanais kong bagay na makakatulong sa akin at sa pamilya ko. #

LOVELIFE MAKEOVER

OVERHAUL--this is what my love life needs.

Right after that tragic relationship with a (former?) LaSalle guy--one of a pathetic and insensitive nature--my first love sent me a message to my surprise. After three months of no messages from him, he texted me again. Right timing? Not really. Wrong timing? Just a bit.
I haven't given up on love, but I am still contemplating about what I want to happen to my lovelife. I am not still ready to plunge into a new relationship--a relationship that has no security.

Hay...

We went out Wednesday and watch a movie. Before we went our separate ways, he told me to text him when I got home. I did--only an hour late 'coz I was busy with a paper for a research class. I never recieved any reply since then. Not a single text. I am accustomed to this act.
He always does this. He would appear. Then, he would disappear and come back another time.
I told this once to a friend and he told me that this could be two things: my first love wants me back and is gauging what I feel for him or is simply doing an ego-boosting thing.

I really don't know the answer. I am confused. MY LIFE NEEDS A MAKEOVER, especially the love part.

I am so tired--really tired.

*Pardon to my friends. Just have to let out my angst.

Nakakapikon

Hmm...Mabait naman ako sa kanya. Binigyan ko pa nga siya ng advice noong kailangan niya kahit na napakasama ng ginawa niya sa akin. Tapos ngayon bigla siyang magpaparate kung paano siya magmahal...Tang* siya!!!!??? Eh, niloko nga niya ako at kinalimutan ko na na minahal niya ako tapos ganoon!!! hay...kapika siya.

Naglabas lang ako ng sama ng loob. :D Bye!

HAUNTING SONGS.

These songs haunt me everyday...I do not know really why...These got stucked to my mind.

Where are you by Natalie (feat. Justin Roman)

Justin](I know you are out there baby...somewhere)There is someone out there for me (I know there is somebody out there)I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah) can you tell me her name? (Somebody tell me her name)This life-long search is gonna drive me insaneHow does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes?Does she even realize I'm here?Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)[Natalie]I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)Praying that he will walk in my lifeWhere is the man of my dreams (right here) yea-yeahI'll wait forever, how silly it seemsHow does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?Does he even realize I'm here?Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)[Justin]There is someone out there for me (there is someone out there for me)I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that's right)[Natalie]How does he laugh? How does he cry? What is the color of his eyes?Does he even realize I'm here?[Justin]Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?[Natalie]Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?[Together]dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada (I know you out there)dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada[Justin Talking]Where are you?? I'm going to look all over the world baby'Cuz I know you are out thereI know this might sound crazy, but I think I love youdadadadadada (that's right) dadadada dadadadadadadadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadadaWhere are you??

DON'T LOVE YOU NO MORE (I'm SORRY) by Craig David

VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Goin' Crazy by Natalie

Ever since the day you went away
And left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same
Oh baby no
When I looked into your eyes
The moment that I let you go I just broke down (down)
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man
Would ever make me feel so right
It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me
Right next to me
And I miss the way you hold me tight
I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything
That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)
That's right baby
Im goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)
Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak
Can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
And you want me
And you miss me
And you love me
I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
Put it down be the woman for you
I'm falling so deep for you
Crazy over you I'm calling
Callin' out to you
What am I gonna do?
It's true no frontin'
It's you ain't no other
I can no longer go on without you
I just break down (down)
I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything
That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)
That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)
ooo, crazy,(ooo)
lady (ooo)
lately (ooo)
Baby

*leave me your speculations why these songs haunt me...hehehe...parang mga multo..hehehe...

Here comes the hell month...

MARCH--How I love and hate this month before the vacation. Yet, professors start asking for all the final requirements; scheduling final exams; making you digest all different concepts in a day.

The haggard month--more haggard than sepetember/october--because there are not just acadeics endeavors but also emotional ones. We would see people we love bid farewell to UP and enter the world of corporate people and corporate turmoils. Sad to think that after more than two years of being with them, they would have to leave UP and be professionals. We would miss them, but we are happy for them 'coz they have already conquered their college endeavors.

Anyway, I have to start going through all my requirements because my professors are doing all the things I've said above due to the so many holidays our governement announced and made; and their lesson plans are way behind their schedule. Tata!

Grabe!

Hindi ko ugaling magpakalate sa klase ng 3 hours (kahit ganun ang gawa ng ilang mga klasemyts ko sa subject na iyon). Pero hindi ko talaga napigilan iyong pangyayari na iyon kanina dahil hindi ko natapos ang aking paglalayout ng dyaryo kaninag madaling-araw kasi kailangan ko talagang ipikit ang aking mga mata at magpahinga naman. Kaya nang magising ako ng 7a o 8a...wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...napamadali ako sa harap ng PC...hehehe...natapos ko naman siya kahit hindi ako satisfied sa gawa ko at napasa ko siya today. (YES! Naabutan ko ang deadline..hehehe...).

On another note, super pabaya na ako sa sarili ko. Ngayon ko lang talaga naintindihan o naabsorb na malaki na talaga pagbabaya ko sa sarili ko dahil pumapayat daw ako sabi ng aking mga blockmates, friends and batchmates. Saka araw-araw na lang asakit ang aking tiyan sa hindi malamang kadahilanan. Kahit kumakain na nga ako hindi pa rin siya nawawala...kapag hindi naman ako kumain ganoon pa rin..ano kaya ito? Minsan, try ko pacheck-up uli sa doctor (a year ago pa ako nagpacheck-up...gagi talaga ko...).

Anyway, nais ko lang naman ishare itong information sa aking mga tagapagbasa (kung meron man, maliban sa aking mga mahal na kaibigan). GOD BLESS! WISH me and my co-candidates LUCK on TUESDAY! love yah all.

A tribute to my loving online families and friends

Hello!
Ayan ako po ito! Isa sa mga member ng most wanted/Mmb2 family at ng solid_adiktus family... Kaya ko nilagay itong pic ko dito para fair sa mga ilalagay ko iyong pic dito, dahil sisimulan kong isa-isahin ang mga importanteng tao sa buhay ko na nakilala ko online...

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Ito si Jhema a.k.a. Kambal. Siya ang aking kambal sa dos. Isa sa mga anak ni ate summy online. Kasama ko sa mga pangtitrip at paglalayag sa iba't ibang mga chatroom. Makulit at sobrang kulit...kakaiba ito magmahal...malalim...isa rin siya sa ga pinagkakatiwalaan kong tao online. kambal, yabyooh!

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Ito naman si SUMMER_CHIQ, ang prinsesa ng DOS. hehehe...Si ate april ang pinakaatagal ko ng kakilala sa dos na nagchachat pa rin at kaclose ko pa rin. Siya ang ate ng bayan at crush din ng bayan sa dos. Alagang-alaga ako nito, hehehe... kaya niyo ba si ate april!!!??? ADviser at confidante..sasabihan ka talaga ng tanga kung mali iyong ginagawa mo.. PANALOng ATE 'to!

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Siya naman si sis KIND, in real, si tin. Kaming dalawa ang baby ng most noon. Kami kasi iyong mga pinakabatang laging naka-ol sa madaling-araw at hapon kaya kami ang lil at baby sis ng bayan. Napakasweet nito at mabait. Miss ko na nga siya kasi hindi na kami nagkakasamang dalawa. Hmm...napakabuti nito lalo na kapag may problema ako, inaalalayan ako nito. Wala akong masasabing masama dito. Kahit matagal na kaming walang communication na maayos, we still remain close friends! love yah, sis!

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Si Pareng LEI...oh my! ang tagal ko na itong kakilala pero hindi pa rin kami nagkikita dahil sa mga busy naming buhay..hehehe...lagi kaming nagpaplano dati na magkita with his girlfriend at that time and with another friend of ours, si sche. Mabait ito! Magaling tumugtog ng gitara! Makawestlife dati (peace!), hehehe...kinakantahan nga kami niyan sa telephono minsan. Anyway, thank you lahat, pare! GOD BLESS.

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ADIK a.k.a. Christian Michael blank blank...Ayan hindi ko na binuo ang pangalan niya for security purposes. *laughs violently* si CM ang founder ng bugawan session sa conference room ng YM. Una kong nakausap mga two o three weeks ago, naging kaclose ko agad itong si adik. Kung magsalita ito, hindi mo aakalain na ganyan ang itsura nian, hehehe... Anyway, salamat sa lahat ng advice at pang-aaway (hahaha...)!

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Si ABHIE blank...hehehe...di ko din bubuuin ang pangalan ni abhie. Si Abhie ang pinakauna kong nakilala sa mga batang kasama sa bugawan session. Sweet, mabait at makulit din. Mana sa amin (hahaha..may ganun!). Sis, salamat sa pagtanggap at pakikipagkaibigan sa akin! Text kita kapag may load na ako:-p.

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Si JHANE...Makulit na bata ito. Kapag ol ito ay lagi akong pinpm agad...hehehe...hinahanap niya agad kung ol ang mga adiktus sa conference. hehehe....Matapang bata ang dating niya sa akin kasi kaya niyang sagutin si adik minsan...hehehe...Ingat at sana maayos mo na iyong problem na sinhare mo sa akin , jhane!

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SI CRESELLE (wala pa siyang pic sa akin, hahanap pa ako), kasamahan ko din sa adiktus at bugawan sessions...katext ko minsan, kaya lang bihira kong gamitin ang sun sim ko ngayon. Miss ko na ito...makulit din ito. Binibigyan akong advice pagdating sa aking problemang pag-ibig noong nakaraang mga araw! Pinapalakas nga loob ko...hehehe...pinapagalitan din niya si crew regarding doon sa kalokohan ng batang iyon sa babae..hehehe...sis, thanks!

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Ang MMB2 Family (noong xmas part 2005). Ang smaahan na kahit pa an may mga di pagkakaunawaan pa minsan-minsan ay buo pa rin. Namimiss ko na ng mga mokong na tambay ng dos. Ang tagal ko na rin kayong hind nakakasama sa pagchachat at sa personal. Ewan ko kung kailan ulit kami magkikita-kita pero alam ko naman na may magpaplano at magpaplano na magkitakita kami. Hindi ko na kayo maisa-isa kasi napakarami natin at alam naman ninyo na mahalaga kayo sa buhay ko (kahit na pinagtitripan at nilalaglag ninyo ako minsan). SALAMAT sa LAHAT! :-* muah, MMB2 and MOST WANTED FAMILY!

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Heheheh...MARAMING SALAMAT SA LAHAT NG TAO NA NASA ITAAS. GINAGAWA NINYONG MASAYA AT WORTHWHILE ANG AKING BUHAY-ONLINE. SA MGA HINDI KO NABANGGIT ISA-ISA, GAGAWA PA AKO NG ISANG ENTRY PARA SA INYO, PERO WAG NINYONG ISIPIN NA YOU'RE LESSER THAN THOSE WHO ARE ALREADY HERE. HINDI GANOON IYON. SALAMAT! MAHAL KO KAYONG LAHAT, MGA KAPATID!

back on track

Yehey! Even if it is too late in the game, I'm getting back on track.

Masaya ako kasi, nararamdaman ko na nagsisimula na naan akong mapressure at mahaggard at maO.C. sa mga bagay-bagay. Although it is unhealthy for me kasi kapag ganto ay tinatamad akong kumain at everything, mas mabuti na iyon kaysa sa tinatamad akong gumawa ng mga bagay-bagay. Tinatamad pa rin ako pero minimal na. Sinisimulan ko na yung mga dapat na ginagawa ko.

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